The Update - 06/06/06

It's been almost a year since my last update. It seemed only right that 6/6/6 was the day I should return to the necessary evil of blogging. During this most recent bout with Major Depression, I have made more progress than I would have previously anticipated. I guess the magnitude of self realization that I experienced caused some type of overload, because this was by-far the worst occurrence to-date...(with Dysthymia you can at least still pretend to function on a regular basis, but not being able to get out of bed is a different story altogether...)

Though I have been somewhat 'out of it', there have been numerous positive occurrences along the way, and that is where I would like to pick up the blog and move forward. I have concluded that in order to 'move forward', I must put the past where it belongs; behind me.

I do not for one moment believe that I have made complete peace within myself regarding my childhood. I simply now have enough counter-intelligence to proceed, albeit cautiously, into the unchartered territory of adulthood. With this new thrust of direction I hope to eventually be able to claim not only peace within, but also peace with those who hurt the child that I have forever since been.

The blog will now become more of what it was intended to be in the first place, a journal of my daily struggle. I hope to post something everyday, but in reality I'll be lucky to get three posts a week. I will endeavor to focus on the positive, but as usual, I won't pull any punches either. }-(

In the near future, topics will cover a wide range of topics including: The 'Old Man' (God), the diet (75 lbs lost), depression, the new piano, the new songs (and CD), and suicide... join me...

-b